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O is for Opening to New Possibiities: #atozchallenge Day 16

Things of Wonder

Death presents a threshold

Death ends so many things

Things we’ve grown used to

Things cherished and held dear

Dear spirit of our departed one

Dear moments that are forever gone

Gone and still a part of who I am

Gone like his voice and his smile

Smile that warms my soul still

Smile that says to take a chance

Chance on making some changes

Chance on a new way of life

Life cannot always stay the same

Life continues and life shifts

Shifts with each birth and death

Shifts with closings and openings

Openings of places that were closed

Openings of my heart and soul

Soul still aching with fresh loss

Soul thrumming with new potential

Potential now that wasn’t seen before

Potential to reach for the as-yet unknown

Unknown moments unknown opportunities

Unknown vistas lie waiting for me to explore

Explore life in ways I wouldn’t have chosen

Explore myself in this new after time

Time for learning who I am without him

Time when my being is growing and becoming

Becoming what I will be not as wife but as widow

Becoming the woman his love helped to shape

Shape of possibilities coalesce all around me

Shape of a life that is still largely unformed

Unformed days unfurl all around me

Unformed future will be written by my now

Now is the time to embrace what awaits me

Now is the time to stand tall in love’s strength

Strength of a man who once walked beside me

Strength of a love of more than two decades

Decades of growth of joy and of sorrow

Decades of living and preparing for this

This time of exploration rising around me

This future built upon a stable foundation

Foundation of all he gave to our love

Foundation for all my future days

Days of tears and days of laughter

Days of grief and days of wonder

Wonder just where these days will lead me

Wonder will lead and I will follow

Follow

Me

I’m tired tonight, and scrambling to finish before midnight.  You see, it was a day of embracing new possibilities and creating a new life built upon the foundations of the old.

I was up early to read at my second-ever meet the author event, promoting my Pushcart Prize nominated short story, “Being Colette”, and the other stories in the Dark and Bitter anthology. This one was at an assisted-living facility, with a very engaged audience who asked lots of interesting questions.

On the way there, I noticed an animal shelter. I’ve recently decided to adopt a canine companion – for myself, and for the dog Lise will be adopting soon.

So, on the way home, I stopped – and met Nadine, a young pit bull terrier with an amazing grin and a sweet personality. We hit it off as well as I had with our late pittie mix, Corki.  About an hour later, my fee was paid, and, once she’s been spayed and had a bit of time to recover, Nadine (who will be known as Magnolia, Noli for short) will be coming home with me.

Tomorrow, Jeremiah and I are setting up my new bed (I’ve had a hard time sleeping in the one Jim and I shared, and in which he died).

Life is moving on, and I am changing as I open to new possibilities.

Join us again tomorrow as we discuss preparing life and home for the terminally ill.

Open yourself to other outstanding O posts.

 

Author:

I am myself. I own my life, and live with three other people who own theirs. My intention is to do only those things that bring me joy, and to give myself wholly to those things I do. Writing has been my passion throughout my life, and this will become the home for my writing life...because it brings me great joy!

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