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Peace and Gratitude: October 14, 2015

Have you ever experienced a time of peace following turmoil?

That’s what the last hours have been for me. After weeks of stress and scrutiny, the weight is lifting, and I feel my spirit, which was apparently holding its breath, begin to exhale.

No, everything’s not over, as far as the CPS issues are concerned, but we know enough now to know that it will be, within the next few weeks. There will be a follow-up visit or two, until our case is closed (apparently, it’s been a busy month).

I will be writing to the individual who instigated this chain of events. Fortunately, I’ve had some time to process, so, I can do it from a place of peaceful intent than angry reactivity. More, I don’t expect anything to come of the effort, beyond a sense of resolution in stating my position, and those of my family. So, however the communication is received, I will have the resultant sense of closure, upon delivering it.

So, life here is shifting back to a more natural rhythm of four people living and exploring, in often intersecting orbits, supporting, challenging, and growing, loving and laughing and learning.

And me?

I’ve got a deeper sense of why I so love and value this life we’ve created, we four, together – and, for that, I am most profoundly grateful.

And now, for the reason we’re here…

Color-coding key:

  • Goal attained = blue with overstrike.

  • Goal in progress = green.

  • Goal-in-waiting = red.

Writing:

  • Write one poem daily for the OctPoWriMo Challenge. Each poem will fit the theme “Gratitude”. 9/31. This week: Catch up, and post all poems to date. I’ve written one poem this session, so I have catching up to do through the rest of the week.

Plotting:

  • The IDIC Romance: Complete 2/3 paragraphs for the remaining letters (Q-Z); do an 11:11 Stream of Consciousness sprint for each; these will be the basis for new stories and A-Z posts. Choose one paragraph for each to develop into the post; make episode list for rewatching. Hey, #itswritingresearch! 1/31 stories chosen.

Revisions:

  • The IDIC Romance: Slow Jazz Awakening”: Using compiled notes, complete rough revision plan for 16 scenes. Rewrite and offer as a beta read. Scene 3 in progress from Round Three.

Blogging/Social Media:

  • Publish all regular features posts; scheduling ahead if possible: All up to date, so far. WIPpet posts in drafts through 11/11. #8sunday drafts into November. C and C posts rough outlined for remaining six parts of a seven part series. This week: Do all regular features; schedule all October WIPpets and #8sunday posts; schedule next two C and C posts; draft one additional Mindful Monday post.

  • Catch up all blog comments and visits. Attended to most recent, with return visits. This week: Keep on keeping on. Do better at visiting; that seems to be tripping me up, ATM. Answered and made some visits Tuesday night.

  • ROW80: Keep visits and updates current. Complete and submit Round 4 Sponsor Post. Visits current and then some; sponsor post needs one image and one reference – I expect to finish that well before I sleep. This week: Visits; complete and submit sponsor post.

  • Empty email inbox and maintain below 333 messages. This week: Finish emptying box; maintain. Yes, I DID empty it! And found projects that need tending to, as well. =) Keeping nearly empty. =D

Hometending:

  • Homeschool Administration: Complete all pending paperwork. Draft IHIPs and attend to district’s Peer Review issue.
  • Continue decluttering/beautification projects; in home and/or yard, five days weekly. Continue making improvements to our home and our quality of life. Lise’s room, living room, kitchen, family room, porch, and bathroom. 3/5 days this week. This week: Continue.

Lifetending:

  • Continue planning/ attending outings and events as desired. It’s been a more cocooning spell, here, with most outings still pending. Doctor’s appointments made, and plans underway for Halloween.

  • NNWM local group: Attend write-ins regularly, and check in on the Facebook and Twitter groups as inspired. Read and critique both projects I’ve been hanging onto.
  • Complete the two beta reads I’ve had waaay too long. Located, downloaded, and began to read Beta #2, bolding areas to comment upon when I reread. 10/120 pages (through Chapter Three) complete.

  • My beloveds: One on one time with each, doing something of value to us both, several times each week. Yup!
  • Read 3 fellow author books; complete 7 reviews. Read Starfane, by Lauralynn Elliott. I enjoyed the dual storyline, inventive premise, and worldbuilding. Book 1/3 complete.

Selftending

  • Write in Abundance,Intentions, and #onegoodcup journals seven times each week. Meditate seven times weekly, including one eating meditation. Explore one new meditative practice. This week: add in eating meditation. Journals/meditation: 3/7.

  • T’ai chi practice: at home five times; class twice. Continue reading The Tai Chi Directory, and adding movements to my at-home practice. Read a bit of the directory. This week: At least two at-home practices.

  • Make time for physical activity six days a week; use phone app to track three time a week. Activity: 3/6; Tracking: 2/3.

Leaps of Faith:

  • Poetry Chapbooks

  • Website/Business blog: early brainstorming with my Accomplice.

  • Fantasy convention

  • Fan fiction stuff

  • Self-publishing

These goals are a part of Kait Nolan’s  ROW80 Writing Challenge

It’s also a blog hop –

Find more ROWers right here!

 

Author:

I am myself. I own my life, and live with three other people who own theirs. My intention is to do only those things that bring me joy, and to give myself wholly to those things I do. Writing has been my passion throughout my life, and this will become the home for my writing life...because it brings me great joy!

10 thoughts on “Peace and Gratitude: October 14, 2015

  1. I’m glad that whole is finally moving into completion and filing away under done and over. It sucks that people have to be like that. You seem stronger afterward though. A fellow writer and long time friend also had an issue in this area, best thing you can do is to put one foot in front of the other. In the meantime, I will sending you loves of love and hugs, My Dear.

    1. I tend to look at it as further evidence that stepping away from certain relatonships was the wiser course. We don’t mind concern; we mind very much someone coming into our home as a guest, making assessments based on a few hours with the children and 20 minutes in our home, then not asking about anything, or being willing to accept that their perceptions may be based as much or more on preconceptions than reality.

      Fortunately, the caseworkers are well-trained and able to see a home where love and peace are the prevailing environment, and where learning is being supported and nurtured, even if in a non-conventional way.

      It’s not especially fun, but we were determined not to let it take up more of life than it had to – we’ve got other priorities and projects, and life to live.

      Love and hugs are gratefully accepted. I hope it all worked out for your friend. Ir’s a stressful position to be tossed into.

  2. I’m so glad that things are finally beginning to resolve for you! Isn’t it wonderful to see the light at the end of the tunnel?

    Plus, it looks like you’re progressing well toward achieving your goals. That’s fantastic! You inspire me to attempt more!

    1. It really is quite wonderful. And, despite the unpleasantness of seeing that I was trying to create a civil relationship with someone who either doesn’t want one or isn’t capable of having one with me, a lot of good and growth have been born as a result of this experience, and I’m deeply grateful for that.

      Whatever the motivations of the party involved, I’ve decided to use this as a catalyst for positive change, and a deepening of my own intentions and mindfulness.

      A lot of the progress is still in more administrative areas, but that will be shifting, now that the new moon is here, and things are settling down. I’ve done some foundation building, so the momentum should pick up over the remainder of the month (or until the 28th, when the kids and I plan on traveling to see friends a state away – a Halloween tradition for us).

      I love hearing that I’ve inspired someone else to reach a bit more for their dreams. Thanks for sharing – you gave me an extra-wide smile!

    1. It feels good to have the bulk of the trouble behind us. It feels less so to have relatives who would address matters in this way, rather than directly. It feels like a violation, and it wasn’t necessary.

      I often have a difficult time with stating my feelings and positions when it may lead to conflict – partly my nature, I think, and partly having had a very volatile family life when I was a child.

      At any rate, this is one time when I feel I really do need to state my perspective unequivocably. It’s really far past time.

      I’m gradually fining my way into a more relaxed and natural balance again. I’m keeping up with more hometending, because things are looking and feeling clean and cozy, and we’re all enjoying that. I wrote a poem today, and still hope to get caught up by Sunday – with the writing if not the posting.

      I finally got my sponsor post in.

      And the beta I’m currently enjoying is yours – hope to have the initial read-through done by Sunday, and I’ll email you then. =)

      1. I can definitely understand feeling like it’s a violation. Awful they would do that. I hope putting your feelings out will help.
        Glad you’re getting things done and that you’re enjoying the read.

        1. Honestly, it’s the general dynamic of the family I was born into. We do feel violated, and more than a bit bullied (there’s no recourse against someone who makes these types of calls, even when they do it repeatedly, and even when they are just as repeatedly determined to be unfounded, as they were the first two times calls were made, or seriously exaggerated, as is the case this time).

          They can call as they please, and, each time, someone or someones will have to come within 24 hours to investigate.

          The only positive is that the caller gets no further information, so there’s not much of a payoff beyond being the one to ‘pull the trigger’ so to speak.

          Live and let live would be better. Our home isn’t perfect; WE aren’t, either. But we’re also not negligent, and our children are happily learning and thriving in a home that is orders of magnitude more peaceful and accepting than the one I grew up in.

          And, whether the caller can see that or not, it does get commented upon at every visit.

          Putting my feelings out – calmly and without reactivity – will help me a great deal, and let this person know that they won’t be welcomed onto our property again. And that will be a good thing, because I have a habit of hiding out from making my feelings known when I’ve been wronged.

          So there’s growth in that, and our scuffed up little home is cleaner and cozier…so all’s well, or well enough. =)

    1. Thank you, lovely lady! =) It’s nice to have our lives more under our own control again, and to be getting back to a more natural rhythm. It will be even better when all the loose threads are tied up, but, after the intensity of the last few weeks, this is very, very soothing – a balm for all of us.

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