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SoCS and #LoISInDaBl Day 28: “I Am, and Ever Shall Be, Your Friend”

Put a Little Love in Yours!

Put a Little Love in Yours!

Today at Love Is In Da Blog , Bee  is teaming up with Linda’s Stream of Consciousness Saturday for a joint prompt: friend/aquaint”.

I was ready to get on a plane in Portland, Oregon yesterday morning when I read this. I didn’t have time to absorb before I was embroiled in a cross-country marathon journey with my family.

Today, there’s only one topic for me to write about…

Okay, I haven’t been here for a while, and it feels a little weird to be here now. But my vacation is over, and I’ve been back in upstate New York for about 24 hours now. A chunk of my unpacking is done, and, in a very mellow way befitting my state of mind and the lassitude of a three-hour time shift after a day of travel, I’m catching up on some writerly things that were set aside while I enjoyed some quality time with family and friends.

This is likely to be a scattered bit of writing. I’m full of thoughts and emotions that don’t translate so well into language. Oceans and tides are moving within me, swelling and ebbing. I’m simply allowing them to flow, and I’ll do the same with these words.

I feel I’ve lost a friend today. No. It’s more than a feeling. I have lost a friend.

Maybe we all have, even if we don’t know it.

Let me go back a bit…

Back to when I was just a little girl. I’m in my bedroom. The odds are enormous that I’m reading. It’s about 1976 or so, and there is one TV in our house – a 19″ console model that resides in our living room. We get four channels: ABC, NBC, CBS, and PBS. My parents control what we watch and when.

I hear a familiar voice from the living room, and I go as fast as I can to the love seat, where I love to curl up to watch. The voice has pulled me, and my mother laughs at me.

“I’m Leonard Nimoy, and this is In Search Of…”

Those might not be the actual words he spoke, that serious man with the deep, soothing voice. It doesn’t matter. He opened windows and doors to other places, times, and ways of being. He added riddles to my life.

He made it OK to think about things, to wonder, to fantasize.

I was only mildly aware that that man was an actor, or that he’d played a half-alien named Spock. This was the mid-seventies, after all, and Trekkies were much more underground. My parents didn’t like Star Trek – and we didn’t watch shows they didn’t like. There was no Internet, no cable in our home, no TiVo or even video tapes.

I was thirteen before I really became aware of him in that other role, and he opened up my life in new and profound ways.

I’ve never been the same. Spock entered, and acted as a catalyst. I’m not who I would have been, without the Vulcans.

And the Vulcans wouldn’t be who they are without Leonard.

They might have been a joke, or a token alien species without life or depth. It was the integrity that very first Vulcan gave to his adopted and assumed paternal lineage that offered territory worth exploring and expanding.

If you’ve read here before, you probably noticed that I kind of have a rather intense fascination with Vulcans. It might look, at times, like a fangirl crush – and to some extent it is.

But, like the tiny shift in the light in a Vulcan’s eyes, it’s far more profound than what can be seen on the surface.

For over three decades, Spock has shaped my life. In the last two years, T’Pol has come to do her part. But she couldn’t exist as she does, without her predecessor.

And Leonard made him real – for me, for others, for us all. He took Spock and Vulcanness seriously, and that gave them the ability to become something far more than what they might have been. And that, in turn, gave me the ability to become something far more than I might have been.

That’s something that friends do.

Through Spock, and In Search Of…, I came to see the world and myself as a diverse wonderland. I’ve come to see learning and knowing and imagining as valuable uses of time. I’ve absorbed something of gentleness and kindness, of passion and acceptance of others. These things weren’t part of my daily life as a child. It was Spock – and Leonard – who gave them to me.

Farewell, my friend I never met. You lived well, and with a certain quiet dignity layered over deep passions. You lived in a way I think a certain Vulcan would approve of.

I will miss you, and knowing you’re alive somewhere in the same world I live in. I will always be grateful that, for a time, we shared this world, and that you offered your gifts and your vision to us.

And I will remember.

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Float down the Stream With Us!
Float down the Stream With Us!


I am myself. I own my life, and live with three other people who own theirs. My intention is to do only those things that bring me joy, and to give myself wholly to those things I do. Writing has been my passion throughout my life, and this will become the home for my writing life...because it brings me great joy!

29 thoughts on “SoCS and #LoISInDaBl Day 28: “I Am, and Ever Shall Be, Your Friend”

  1. I, like John, thought of you immediately when I heard the news. I feel your grief through your words – so real.
    He was a great actor and he’ll be sadly missed by many.

    1. He was a great actor – one with deep integrity – and he was more – much more. The world is a richer place because he was here. I’m grieving, but, at the same time. profoundly grateful.

      It helps to know that so many people understand the sorrow of this loss.

  2. Excellent tribute. I’ve been working on a post about Spock since Saturday. Then I became fascinated reading about the many talents and accomplishments of Leonard Nimoy and discovering his photography. I’m so glad you included the Bilbo Baggins video and the Lazy song. So much diversity. I love the way you used the word friend from the SoC prompt. It fits perfectly. I grieve with you. And I remember with you.

    1. I discovered his photography a couple of years back – delightful. I own two volumes of his poetry, and love it. He was a very emotive, deep man…perfect for bringing Spock to vibrant life.

      I HAD to include those two videos, because they so perfectly capture that other side that most people don’t know…

      Let’s grieve and remember together. ❤

  3. When I heard that Leonard Nimoy had died, you were the first person I thought of. Personally, I liked his work on “Mission: Impossible” and “In Search Of…” But he did so many guest star appearances in TV shows and always added something that was uniquely him, but never upstaged anyone.

    The Bruno Mars video is hilarious, by the way…

    1. His episodes are the only M:I episodes I’ve watched. I’ve also seen him on Columbo, Twilight Zone (twice), and in Night Gallery. Jim saw him on an episode of The Lieutenant.

      Before I really knew why it was a big deal, he guested on T.J. Hooker with William Shatner. I didn’t see the episode; I was washing dishes.

      He was also a fine director, poet, and photographer. And the Bruno Mars video shows the thing most people don’t think of with him – his sense of humor. =)

      My son found an old video game he narrated, and I loved seeing him on Fringe and voicing a Spock doll on The Big Bang Theory.

      “…always added something that was uniquely him, but never upstaged anyone.”

      It could be argued that Spock easily upstaged Kirk…but from my point of view, that’s a very good thing.

      Personally, that funky hobbit video gets me every time. =)

          1. “Get Smart” was pure genius. That was Buck Henry and Mel Brooks that came up with the show. I think after a while it was like “Batman,” where a lot of actors wanted to be on it.

  4. Welcome back my faraway friend I missed you terribly 🙂 and I feel the same about Leonard Nimoy even though I never had the chance to hear his real voice until my late 30’s as in Germany English programs are dubbed. He was a great actor and made a species real 🙂

    1. He was a great actor, and so much more. ❤ I can't imagine not having his voice as a soundtrack for my life.

      I was doing fine with posting until Monday, when I spent a few hours at a coffeehouse, trying to connect to the Internet – and their Internet was down. But I'm back home now, and plan to post, belatedly, the posts that didn't get posted (does that make any sense at all?)

      1. Yes, it does I was wondering where your posts were :-). Hope you had a great time and enjoyed yourself thoroughly 🙂

        1. It was delicious! So much so that we’re planning a move in the future…

          I’ll get the posts up here and there throughout the week. I’d hoped to get them all scheduled before we left, to avoid problems, but there was packing and prepping and life and I didn’t….

          1. Doesn’t matter they are welcome anytime 🙂 gives all of us a little longer stay on “Love Is In Da Blog” 🙂

          2. I finished this round of rewrites just before I went to bed. Today, I’ll begin with Day 24, and try to do two a day, today and Thursday (I already have two scheduled Wednesday posts).

            We all caught a cold from the airplane, so I’m still a bit fuzzy and muddled by time and season changes, but I think I can get the first two up. All the posts are begun; they just need to be finished and posted.

          3. I am feeling better – now my computer is sick! =/

            Using my son’s battered machine, and still hoping to get the other three posts up this week!

          4. Oh dear, you are not blessed lately. So sorry to hear about your trouble. Will light a candle in my Buddha candle holder I got for Christmas from the kids for you tomorrow.

          5. Actually, I feel pretty blessed. There’s a computer here to use, and it’s identical to my old one. That makes it easier to relearn…and mine is still under warranty.

            It has certainly been an interesting week, though!

    1. I think friendliness is a matter of spirit. Some people are open in a way that invites others in. They give of themselves without really knowing who will benefit, or how.

      Maybe that’s a deeper form of friendship….

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