It’s been a few days since Round 2 ended. I’ve spent a day with an online friend I’ve wanted to meet for years, and recovered from the rather nasty cold that took over the last few days of the round. I’ve done a little cleaning up, and a lot of hanging out with my three favorite people in the world.
And I’ve had a bit of time to think about the 80 days of Round 2, assess where I am, and begin to envision what I want from Round 3.
Round 2 was my fifth ROW80 session, and, in many ways, it feels as though I have had a transformative session. Maybe it’s that I began with this phrase:
“Read a little, try a little, wait a while, watch.” –Sandra Dodd
This phrase has been hugely helpful in my unschooling life, and turned out to have similar value for writing:
It encouraged not only reading about craft, which I did, but also embraced my periodic tendency to need a great deal of various types of input – television, games, travel and events. For the first time, these became a recognized part of my round, important for nurturing growth and new ideas.
Because of this, I discovered Enterprise. If you’ve read here the last few weeks, you will know that this show has become my new passion – and, as a bonus, it’s inspiring both new fan fiction and deepening ideas for existing WIPs.
It encouraged me, for the first time, to freely adapt my goals to suit me, as often as I felt it would benefit me. I don’t have conclusive proof, but that seems to have inspired me to do more, and more of what truly felt “right”, than in previous rounds.
Waiting a while gave space for those times of flux when nothing much seemed to be happening. I’ve known for a long time that these are deepening and fertile times for me, but I had been more focused on ticking things off the to-do list than in allowing these times space to be.
Watching meant a commitment to periodic in-depth evaluation against my interests, energy and time availability, and long-term vision. This gave me many chances to tweak and adjust, throughout the round.
I completed my 75,000 word goal for April CampNaNoWriMo.
I blogged more regularly and with more awareness than ever before. Although I will be stepping back a bit, at least for the summer, I learned a tremendous amount in attempting (and sometimes succeeding), in blogging daily.
I took more time to be with the ones I love, hang with friends, and honor myself.
Something that’s not on this list is how much more naturally my writing flows with my life, now. I had the same feeling, when the once-alien world of unschooling began to make sense and require less in the way of constant self-checking, and more a matter of simply being open and aware to what each moment needed of me.
There are some concrete signs of progress up there, but I think the greatest shift has been happening, in its own surges and ebbs, within me. I am different than I was at the beginning of the round. I feel at once as though I am softer, easier – and with a far more finely honed edge of focus.
Next month, I will be, amidst the sea of emotional surges and ebbs that is July, 44 years old.
And, at last, I feel like what it seems I’ve wanted for most of it…
I feel like a writer.
And I am.
I am a writer.
Thank you,Kait Nolan, and all you amazing ROWers, for the inspiration and the tools that have allowed me to see that it was there, inside me, all along, just waiting for me to be ready to claim it.
I will be back by Sunday, June 30, with my Round 3 goals ready to go! Want a hint? I’ll be Delving Passion!
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